On Being Thankful

11 weeks out from delivering our beautiful girl, I find I have been really down on my body.  It doesn’t even look like it did before Cricket… not even at the same weight.  Things don’t fit the same.  I don’t feel the same.  I look at it and it looks like the body of someone else, someone older and doughier.

I took 10 weeks of maternity leave full-time, and 2 weeks part-time from home.  These 2 weeks have been an eye opener… I struggle to get work done, and keep Cricket taken care of.  To pump and feed.  To do laundry and clean house.  To make delicious and nutritious meals…  Working full-time and caring for an infant will be no joke.

I haven’t found time to exercise while on maternity.  A few walks here and there…  Some strength training spattered in there as well.  I don’t imagine it will be better when I get to working full-time in the office again.  And that makes me so sad because I truly wanted to start out with habits during this transition in our life that I could share and show Cricket.  It makes me feel like I’m failing her already.

And then I thought about how lucky I am to be where I am at with my body.

Because I have a beautiful baby girl, whom I love more than the world.

Because I am so lucky that my body carried and delivered her to us.

Because my body provides her with milk and comfort.

And I am so thankful for those things…

And for this girl…
best day ever
1 week old
so little... so tired


We are still sleeping in…

Every day since ohhh… I don’ know… I left the bank….
At first we were only sleeping in a little, and I was still getting up and exercising… in the morning, a little later while walking Theron, and walking to work…
But with mom here to hang out with… that’s been taking priority.

Happy for Mom-time, disappointed in me for not finding/making time to workout.

Also, I have been letting being achy, or tired, or gluteny be excuses not to work out…

I keep forgetting there are people like this who work out even with a broken foot…  I really am letting those things be my easy out.  Which, in the long run makes my health harder to achieve.

Easy now, more work later.

What a pisser!!!
Plus, during my last minute massage (they didnt’ call me ahead of time to let me know it was scheduled, thank goodness I had that little thought in my head that I should be prepared in case)… I really thought about how to be the best I can be in my career, I have to put my health in the forefront to be stronger and to maintain better body mechanics…

I’m going to go see if I can talk the Mothership Mother unit into a walk on this glorious 75 degree fall day!!!  FINGERS CROSSED! 🙂