11 weeks out from delivering our beautiful girl, I find I have been really down on my body. It doesn’t even look like it did before Cricket… not even at the same weight. Things don’t fit the same. I don’t feel the same. I look at it and it looks like the body of someone else, someone older and doughier.
I took 10 weeks of maternity leave full-time, and 2 weeks part-time from home. These 2 weeks have been an eye opener… I struggle to get work done, and keep Cricket taken care of. To pump and feed. To do laundry and clean house. To make delicious and nutritious meals… Working full-time and caring for an infant will be no joke.
I haven’t found time to exercise while on maternity. A few walks here and there… Some strength training spattered in there as well. I don’t imagine it will be better when I get to working full-time in the office again. And that makes me so sad because I truly wanted to start out with habits during this transition in our life that I could share and show Cricket. It makes me feel like I’m failing her already.
And then I thought about how lucky I am to be where I am at with my body.
Because I have a beautiful baby girl, whom I love more than the world.
Because I am so lucky that my body carried and delivered her to us.
Because my body provides her with milk and comfort.
Every day since ohhh… I don’ know… I left the bank…. At first we were only sleeping in a little, and I was still getting up and exercising… in the morning, a little later while walking Theron, and walking to work… But with mom here to hang out with… that’s been taking priority.
Happy for Mom-time, disappointed in me for not finding/making time to workout.
Also, I have been letting being achy, or tired, or gluteny be excuses not to work out…
I keep forgetting there are people like this who work out even with a broken foot… I really am letting those things be my easy out. Which, in the long run makes my health harder to achieve.
Easy now, more work later.
What a pisser!!! Plus, during my last minute massage (they didnt’ call me ahead of time to let me know it was scheduled, thank goodness I had that little thought in my head that I should be prepared in case)… I really thought about how to be the best I can be in my career, I have to put my health in the forefront to be stronger and to maintain better body mechanics…
I’m going to go see if I can talk the Mothership Mother unit into a walk on this glorious 75 degree fall day!!! FINGERS CROSSED! 🙂