One week into my re-ignited commitment to the 1300 club and I’ve realized something…
I don’t want to do it.
It doesn’t make me mentally happy to have to be starving, and cranky and have to not grab an apple. And it doesn’t really seem healthy – physically or emotionally.
If I get up, and do P90X, and then run… and then walk the dog twice. Plus take care of the home and massage… I’m TIRED. DOG TIRED if I eat only 1300 calories…. And bitchy. Very bitchy.
I’m one of those people that gets mean and dizzy and stupid when I let my blood sugar go to low… It is what it is, and I try to avoid it.
To be honest with you… I don’t want to be creating behaviors at only serve as a means to achieve my goal. I want to be creating habits to sustain me and my life from this day forward… you know… For my happily ever after. (Yes that happily ever after is tongue in cheek).
If I’ve learned anything from other’s success is that the “after” is so very difficult too. Especially for those who adopted those mentalities that they wouldn’t have to worry “after”. They’d be thin/fit/healthy and that means the problem is solved. I know if I don’t relearn how to feed myself and take care of myself, this will continue and continue and will not be a forever change at all.
And quite honestly, I am willing to do quite a bit now to make that part easier.
So today I sat down and gave myself new, more realistic guidelines.
I detailed out how much I prefer to eat at each meal without being deprived, and without having to go without, while still being smart and still working to lose weight.
I also added in snacks and drink/treat calories, because I really think those things are important parts of my balance. If I don’t plan on them, once I have a drink or a treat, it’s a no holds barred treat-fest in my world. I don’t want it to be that way anymore. I don’t want think or feel I can’t have a scoop of ice cream, or a glass of wine, or an afternoon snack because I’m starving.
Here’s what I have devised… Does it seem doable? Sometimes I can’t take off the rose-colored-this-is-soooo-gonna-work glasses!
Breakfast: ~350 Calories
Lunch: ~400 Calories
Dinner: ~500 Calories
Snacks: ~125 Calories
Treats: ~125 Calories
I think that trying to lose weight by eating 1500 calories is a lot closer to reality and to a sustainable amount to eat. I think that will keep me going because if i had to, I probably could handle that average forever if I had to. Although I highly look forward to someday intuitively. Once I find that intuition. 🙂
I worry that eating 1500 means the scale won’t move quickly enough for me to get frustrated. FINGERS CROSSED!
What do you think? 1500 enough? Too much?