Normally month end is pretty big business at work.
Lots of last minute stuff that comes in. Lots of staying late. Lots of rudeness and stress a-plenty in our department.
Now I’m not saying I won’t have to stay late after my class… But I will say the stress is at a standstill for the day while I’m in class.
I know it’s turbo-nerdy, but I love this ergonomics stuff!!! Probably because it appeals to the healthy little Mindy in me… and to my massage training… but it’s been such a breath of fresh air. It’s helping me to get rid of some of this stagnant stress.
It’s giving me hope that if some things in my work/life situation changes, I could be happy, healthy and whole feeling again.
I think stress breeds stress. I think negativity breeds negativity. And I think if those things are not managed from the top down; they multiply in weird ways.
When I first started this new position, I was ready and raring to go!!! I was pumping the positivity out of every pore! I thought I could help make things more streamlined, help when everyoen else seemed so down in the dumps. I truly (and sadly I was totally incorrect) thought I could be a change agent.
As the past few months have gone by, I find myself dragged further and further down. It has gotten to a point where I don’t even see those little glimmers of light breaking through the storm clouds. I used to think I could be that light in the dark. That me being happy and weathering the storm by looking for those silver linings would be enough.
As I am sure you can tell from my past posts, I’m not being very successful on that front.
This class has been great for reminding me of who I am, independant from my life in my work department. I honestly cannot wait for the day I get to be me all day long!!
Sorry for two serious posts in a day. Tonight will be full of whimsy(I HOPE!!!)!! Or at least filled with some Theron antics. 🙂